melissa truong.

it's so hard to accept the fact that you left and moved so far away.reminiscing the days we hungout and all this shit. the first time i met you was at janet tran's house. first impression was funny but i thought you were wierd. you were painting you toe nails! hahaha ): all the goods times hanging out with kim, janet, helen, and loreen to juju and janet, then janet and jane. from all the bullshit we went through. the similar problems me and you had w/ our family. we were always there for each other when we were broken down...our "B4" group, using chalk tagging it all over the neighborhoods close by us. to being killuhs. though idk if i'm still one, we were always there for each other. there is too much to say, like i said, our memories we had together and our bond as homegirls, is indescribable<3

earlier, when we said our last goodbyes, i couldn't take the fact that you were moving. your dad was waiting for you in the car. i gave you your stuff and walked you out...my dad was asking where you were moving, you said palm desert, and my dad was telling you to give me the address to your place so he can take me to you for visits and sleepovers. i rather kidnap you and take you back to OC. when you went to put your stuff in the car, you turned back and stared at me. the tears came, and the last hug you ran to give me. i would've kept crying...but tony was laughing at me ): sigh....i just wish you the best. goodluck with everything. and know that i'm always gonna be here for you. promise<3

i give up!

on tumblr! LOL i don't get it......i'm just gonna stick to blogspot now.

buzz kill.

buzz kill, i feel so hurt all over again. didn't really think about how my true feelings were for the past days, but now i am again. i can see from your guys point of view, that you both really care for me. you guys don't want me to get hurt. i just hate all the doubts you guys put on me. making me feel like i can't do shit that i wanna do. and that i'm going to do. i'm sorry. i know i proved you guys wrong from the beginning, doesn't mean i'm gonna let you guys down this time. i have my own reasons & thoughts that i'm really gonna do it this time. you guys dont know. no one knows. its me. i've made up my mind about school, and my own life. i really dont need anyone but my close ones. sigh...just fuck everything for the night. i dont feel good. bye.

comedown.

i realized everything today. i realized melissa is leaving very soon, its the last week. i didn't think this would happen so quickly. everything is changing so fast, we grew apart for a year and a half, but this summer made us come closer again. i'm glad we did. i have this very strong love for you, i love you so much more then my step dad. though i really don't like him. you're always here for me, and i'll always be here for you. you always have something to say to make me feel better. all the days we hungout the past weeks was the best part of summer, it was just the two of us fucking around, and making up stupid shit just cause we were bored. cracking up by the stupid things i say like "damn this james dinh guy looks cute from far away" but when i click the myspace it shows up to be some fat guy. i'm really gonna miss you melissa, i'm gonna miss having you over at my house everyday, having class with you at school, smoking with you when i'm stressing out, rolling with you, picking you up and taking you home, and just reminiscing about the old days. i can just tell so much, but the bond we got together as homegirls, is indescribable. i love you mamalissa truong<3

donny....i realized that what we had together was really special though it wasn't for long of our second time when we tried again. i fell really hard for you, cause everyone and even myself saw that i was always happy. i felt the butterflies everytime i was with you, like i was a little kid again with a crush on someone. i was willing to risk getting hurt all over again just to be with you, thinking that when we argue, fight, and disagree on some things it'll just make us stronger. you weren't like the guys i've dated in the past, you were different from others because you cared most. you were there for me when i needed you. i know you're gonna have a busy schedule now, with 3 jobs and school, so i want the best for you. i want to write more but writing this is making me cry nonstop so i can't take it anymore....it felt like i fell in LIKE with you a lot....i'm gonna miss everything we had, and i'm gonna miss you. stay^ and know that i'll always be here<3

why so negative?

i haven't blogged for awhile but its okay. i hate being home doing nothing. no tv, no company. i have the computer, but i'm tired of always being on the computer. i can do so much more to entertain myself, but right now i feel so sad....

i keep thinking negative, i'm tripping about little things, idk...what am i supposed to do. i really really like you donny. but you've got so much ahead of you and i don't wanna be in the way. i feel like i'm too immature for you, too attached to you, not good enough for you... =/ i miss you right now. i feel like you don't wanna talk to me and idk if you're still sleeping..you're someone i wanna be with, i don't want you to be just ANOTHER guy..i want you to be the special one. i'm always worrying about you, you're always on my mind, i feel like i'm so obsessed ): sighh....

HAHAHAHA! CAROLYN CAO'S CONFESSION

carolynnnTLA (5:59:40 PM): ey i dont have a problem with you k . i did but idgaf anymore
carolynnnTLA (6:00:14 PM): i only reason why i call you out cause you were with him
^- yeah thats right carolyn CAO! you fucken jealous bitch!

HAHAHAAHAHAHA! you make me laugh!

OMFG.

i could've went to BT and get that bitch today! wtf!? omfg! disappointmetn! >:OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

OMFUCKEN FUCKEN FUCKEN FUCKEN GOD! >:O

wtf!?!?!?!?

good things do come back.

finally, i thought this wouldn't happen but it did.

sighhh can't believe kiet is going back home tomorrow! >:O

i dont want him to leaveee! >_<

idk.

i felt like i was over you from my mind but i was never over you from the heart. i still miss you the same way, a lot of things i do now a days reminds me of you. you're not my first but i' rather call you as my first. i miss your company, the things we did, and what we had together. everything seems like a blur to me, doing things to keep my mind off you, knowing you're still gonna be in the back of my head everyday...