buzz kill.

buzz kill, i feel so hurt all over again. didn't really think about how my true feelings were for the past days, but now i am again. i can see from your guys point of view, that you both really care for me. you guys don't want me to get hurt. i just hate all the doubts you guys put on me. making me feel like i can't do shit that i wanna do. and that i'm going to do. i'm sorry. i know i proved you guys wrong from the beginning, doesn't mean i'm gonna let you guys down this time. i have my own reasons & thoughts that i'm really gonna do it this time. you guys dont know. no one knows. its me. i've made up my mind about school, and my own life. i really dont need anyone but my close ones. sigh...just fuck everything for the night. i dont feel good. bye.