why so negative?

i haven't blogged for awhile but its okay. i hate being home doing nothing. no tv, no company. i have the computer, but i'm tired of always being on the computer. i can do so much more to entertain myself, but right now i feel so sad....

i keep thinking negative, i'm tripping about little things, idk...what am i supposed to do. i really really like you donny. but you've got so much ahead of you and i don't wanna be in the way. i feel like i'm too immature for you, too attached to you, not good enough for you... =/ i miss you right now. i feel like you don't wanna talk to me and idk if you're still sleeping..you're someone i wanna be with, i don't want you to be just ANOTHER guy..i want you to be the special one. i'm always worrying about you, you're always on my mind, i feel like i'm so obsessed ): sighh....